Friday, August 10, 2007

Relationships

Had a really great evening yesterday. The girl and I went to supper with BF and his boys. They're really fun and his boys are so good with her. I really like that. One told her "Hey, I get to sit next to you!" I just think that's so cool that they enjoy us and that he's so open about that. They're just such good kids. I enjoy them. And to think there was a time that I didn't think we'd ever be including kids in our relationship. I didn't know I'd ever get to really know them. I'm really glad for the opportunity. And the girl loves it too. She enjoys having kids to play with, especially boys that try to teach her crazy things and she thinks they're just 'so cool.' I think it's just a really good thing all around, for everyone.

And wow do I love that man. There was also a time I didn't think I'd ever be able to say that outloud. I didn't think he'd ever be comfortable enough to consider a relationship let alone the whole love thing. Letting someone in like that. But you know, as scary as it is to be vulnerable in front of someone, to let them in and know how easily they could hurt you, it's just as scary if not more so to think about being too afraid to ever risk it and losing this chance, losing what we have. He really is a great guy, though. Every time I look at him I realize how great he is, how beautiful he is inside. It shines in him, in those deep, sweet eyes. Man, he's got a great smile too. I know, gettin all mushy in here. That's okay, though. It couldn't be over a better guy.

The girl always is saying that she wishes we could hang out with them more, I know what she means, we just always have a blast. And we do get together more and more. She just enjoys being with them. And that makes me feel good, cause if this wasn't a good thing for her too, I wouldn't be doing it, including her. These kids are so important, much more than just adults and our relationship. They are still growing and learning. You know, if the kids didn't get along or like either of us, I would completely expect us to be put on hold for times we were alone or more only on the phone. Course I don't think we'd be attracted to personalities that would clash that badly with our kids.

I am grateful for where we are, and also grateful for the journey. I've learned a lot about myself and about life/people. To talk and be open with someone like this you can really get into them and appreciate what makes them unique and read them better. I've probably learned more about myself by listening to him because he pays such close attention to me. Have I mentioned how I love this man? :) Alright, enough with the gushing.

This weekend I have my little girl. Sunday we're going to my co-worker's for her hubby's birthday (50) and my BF and his boys are coming too. Other than that, we've got the weekend to ourselves and I really want to do some fun stuff. Just us girls.

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